IT IS NOT EASY. To come up with good/presentable articles before the deadline whilst running around here and there every day to cover events. And at the same time, think of ways on how to improve my radio shows along the anxiety of not wanting to be left behind in the ‘invisible yet visible’ competition with my contemporaries. IT IS NOT EASY. To balance the time between 2 jobs that I’m equally passionate about, plus time for college, for gym and time for my personal life. My family and friends seems disappointed with me for not giving them time these days, and I cannot even blame them, for it is true. Come to think of it, I haven’t even had a ‘me’ time in a very long time. I've not even been writing for myself. My blog seems estranged. IT IS NOT EASY. To want to be a fairly good employee at both workplaces and yet be the same nice ‘Pretty/Sara’ that all my loved ones have always known me as.
I have cried and broke down many times amidst all this chaos. I have even thought of giving it all up. But with every mistake I've made, with every tear I've wiped, and with every person who has tried to pull me down, I have only convinced myself to stand up again, continue fighting and show it to them.
Sure it is easy to leave all this mess and just go home, relax under the sun, watch all my favorite TV shows that I've been missing and just do nothing at all. I can easily do that, but I choose not to! As difficult/hectic/crazy/
stressful as it is for me right now, I choose to continue struggling. Cause I believe all this is happening for a reason. I am an optimist who ‘foolishly’ believes that God is making me face all this hardship today just so that I can become a more stronger, more better and a successful person tomorrow.
They say, “An arrow can only be shot by pulling it backward. So when Life is dragging you back with difficulties, it only means that it's going to launch you into something great. So just focus, and keep aiming.”
Focusing.. Aiming.. Fighting..